Nevertheless, here I am again, and I'll be filling you in about the improvements and developments that have happened since I last blogged.
Firstly, a lot of 3D.
William Vaughan, to be specific.
Here's his site.
I have acquired some great plug-ins and tutorials. I may even post some of my tutorials up here so that those who do come across this site will be benefited. I've learned quite a few new tricks and contrary to my previous feeling, I'm actually getting better. I don't really know how to describe it, but I don't feel like doing as much as before. It's probably because I have the tendency to stop doing a particular thing once I've 'discovered it' so to speak. I'm changing though, but slowly. Earlier, 3D was a stress-buster, but now it's more of a pastime, something that I do when the strictly when the need arises or when I'm utterly bored or have nothing else to do. Anyways, I've come up with quite a few models and rigs, and I'll probably be posting them here for download.
That said, let's get on to the next big thing. Incredibots.
Insane way to learn mechanics. I've never seen anything like it. It runs on any computer provided there's decent hardware, and is not a standalone app by itself!
Simply open it with any program that will read a flash (.swf) file and you're good to go. I usually run it on GOM Player and it's fantastic. I'm guessing it's better on a video player because then your PC's Video card is also utilized during rendering. Also, you have volume control, which you wouldn't have if you opened it in something like Irfanview.
The concept itself is amazing. The program doesn't really need a specific file format. Simply importing a file into text form and saving as a .txt will do fine. The current version, however (Jaybit) has it's own proprietary format. The format varies for Bots, Challenges and Replays. (Go to the site and find out what these are!)
Last night, I made a self loading 8x8 truck. The feeling that overcomes you when your creation works is indescribable.
Here it is:
I've also built about four tanks, one of them with working suspension, movable turret and realistic tracks. The excitement is great!
And yes, about my phone. I discovered a few days ago that the antenna was on the bottom left, near the microphone. I have an E71, which was one of the most expensive models from Nokia once upon a time. I saw this post on an unofficial Apple forum which said that the reception on the E71 sucked. I hadn't had a single problem with it, and I hadn't had a single dropped call too. And it's been two almost two years.
Onto more personal stuff. It seems I'm a little on the edge here. I have no idea where my relationship is going, yet I must comfort and pacify the young woman in question. I'm not saying there's no love, but i'm not saying that theres that flame either. It's rather frustrating. This stuff inevitably affects my work and focus. I have no idea what to do about it. I seem to be attracted to other females in my circle, but I know it's never going to happen. It's kind of difficult to break up with a girl you've promised to marry, especially when you pledge your eternal love and care and then realize later that you're stuck with a girl who has major insecurity problems and other relationship-straining issues. I'm kind of like a limp rubber band. I don't know how much more I can stretch before I break. I wonder if this is what happens to most people during their very first relationship.
What I didn't realize before is that there was a chance I would not want to continue said relationship. Right now, this very same error is back to bite me in the ass. The worst parts come when you find out certain things about your partner only after a few months of dating her. Shit, it's been almost a year , and I'm still finding out stuff with each passing week. I remember, at the beginning, I was told by someone more than three times my age that a marriage could be made very soon indeed. I was even given an example of a case where the whole thing was settled at 17 years of age, and has lasted till now(40+ years ago). I didn't know that this whole business was subjective. And in my case, I committed and now, I feel screwed, simply put. In the beginning, you don't tend to look deep into a person. You just find their good points and satisfy yourself with them. Major glitch on my part. I settled for her before I even knew her properly. I just wish I could have a regular girl with regular life goals. Currently I'm dealing with 'There's no reason for me to be alive, but I'm alive only for you'. Beat that. I can't even bring up the subject of splitting with this on the table. I also have to deal with suicide attempts occasionally, one of them being walking out alone at night into a bad area. I actually had to follow and she walked eight and a half kilometers. I couldn't do a damn thing. Physical force will cause the surrounding public to converge on you and beat the hell out of you. Verbal communication doesn't work either. She's stubborn to the point of being unreasonable and stupid.
I have no idea how to deal with this situation. I remember, when I was in school, I always wanted a girl who was smart, sharp, and is comfortable with the idea of sex. I have none of the aforementioned traits. I must say, I now feel that me asking her out was a mistake. It happened just after I got over another girl whom I liked , but had not dated. This was probably rebound, of all things. After about a month, she started saying that she wanted me to be her husband. I should have said 'who, slow down!' or something similar, but I didn't know what would happen if I did say that, so I ended up saying 'me too, wifey'. Oh, that's real messed up.
Within the next few months, and billions of fights later she wanted a commitment from me. And like an ass, I gave it to her. I don't know how the hell I didn't see all the stubbornness, narrow-mindedness and suicidal inclinations then. I don't know how I'm going to spend my life with her. However, there is a major pluspoint though. She will NOT cheat, come what may. I know this because of all the insecurity. I believe there's a point up-to which any guy can reassure a girl of his commitment. After that point, it's just insecurity from the girl, which is pretty hard to suppress. I can't hang out with certain friends or girls whom I've liked previously, simply because she doesn't like them.
I always try and keep a good relationship with all my colleagues, even though they may not be my buddies. Her attitude absolutely ruins everything. Her show of anger is incredibly loud and violent. That's something I can't stand, as I've had it from my mom during my childhood, and I myself try and keep a cool head during any confrontation. I don't like to raise my voice, and so I go silent in anger. This actually proves much more effective than exploding, but with her it's the exact opposite. That's something that really gets on my nerves.
Anyways, enough out of me for today. I have to ready myself for a class this afternoon. Oh, and I forgot, I'll be teaching again. I'm enthusiastic about this at least, considering there'll be a new batch and I need the money.
